I have always said that both sides are treacherous, you can't convert the preached too.
I momentarily unblocked you to see if you have begun to talk sense.
Nope. Not even in English.
Don't put yourself through this humiliation. This is like a 'look at the inside of my pants' competition. I think that you, and the entirety of NSC, would benefit enormously by a period of your silence. But mostly you. It can't be easy.....