Kosh
'The' Yaztromo
I'm feeling flat, I was flat before the match, flat during it, flat after it... I am a little worried I'm giving way less of a toss these days... I rarely get excited when we win, draw or on the other side of the coin get too bothered when we lose... Maybe I've mellowed...? or maybe I'm finding top level football, VAR, the vast amounts of sickening money/corruption ruining the game all too much.
I've most definitely lost my footballing highs and lows.
In truth I suspect my heart isn't really in it anymore, and I never thought I'd feel like this - especially now, with the club financially secure, the football the best in my lifetime etc. I guess, for whatever reason, I'm jaded. I really only bother for my son who is at the stage of football dominating all his waking thoughts...
Last nights game sums up my emotions really, meh, meh and meh... beyond that, I no longer get excited by new signings expecting them to leave if they prove successful and the subject of supporter vitriol if they don't set the world alight... which all seems counter intuitive in the extreme... I'm less engaged than ever, and (as I say) I can't place why ?
I think this will be the first year I fail to see us 'live' as the Newcastle experience really is SHIT, although technically I saw us in preseason... But I've no desire to see us play, which given our potential to actually win something is (again) at odds with my usual disposition.
I keep wondering if it's more to do with the 'invisible' ceiling we've reached and the sneaking suspicion that 6-10th is the best it will ever be, with a sobering revolving door of talent coming and going as the money clubs circle... Maybe, maybe not...
Then again - perhaps I'm being over analytical and this lack of fire is more about me, and my jaded 40 something view of the world, and far less about the Albion per say... hmmmmm.
Anyone else feel like they're staring into the dying embers of a once roaring fire ?
Kosh
I've most definitely lost my footballing highs and lows.
In truth I suspect my heart isn't really in it anymore, and I never thought I'd feel like this - especially now, with the club financially secure, the football the best in my lifetime etc. I guess, for whatever reason, I'm jaded. I really only bother for my son who is at the stage of football dominating all his waking thoughts...
Last nights game sums up my emotions really, meh, meh and meh... beyond that, I no longer get excited by new signings expecting them to leave if they prove successful and the subject of supporter vitriol if they don't set the world alight... which all seems counter intuitive in the extreme... I'm less engaged than ever, and (as I say) I can't place why ?
I think this will be the first year I fail to see us 'live' as the Newcastle experience really is SHIT, although technically I saw us in preseason... But I've no desire to see us play, which given our potential to actually win something is (again) at odds with my usual disposition.
I keep wondering if it's more to do with the 'invisible' ceiling we've reached and the sneaking suspicion that 6-10th is the best it will ever be, with a sobering revolving door of talent coming and going as the money clubs circle... Maybe, maybe not...
Then again - perhaps I'm being over analytical and this lack of fire is more about me, and my jaded 40 something view of the world, and far less about the Albion per say... hmmmmm.
Anyone else feel like they're staring into the dying embers of a once roaring fire ?
Kosh
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