Meade's Ball
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The year I've had so far I hope it happens soon.
I hope the worst of it's behind you and you get to spot the odd blessing here or there.
Warm regards.
The year I've had so far I hope it happens soon.
I do actually remember the time when i learnt that i would die, i must've been about 10 or 11, and i remember it really messing me up. I think it was because i never really grasped the concept of religion or the afterlife, it just made no sense to me and i always knew that after death, there was absolutely nothing - it still scares me now if im brutally honest - i still get that cold lifeless feeling whenever i start to think about the abyss of death.
Having to stay in the Royal Sussex County hospital for a few days after taking some contaminated ecstasy pills five years ago.
Internal bleeding in my stomach and my kidneys had minor damage. That was scary and I thought my number was up. Now fully recovered although I don't drink alcohol, tea or coffee anymore.
Similar to this for me. Used to lay in bed having sleepless nights about it. Use to scare the shit out of me. Still does a little bit now I 'spose.
Used to scare me quite a bit when I was younger (12-14 years old).
Now I,ve had most of life, I see it very differently now.
A 'lifetime' is just an elongated day.
When you first get up in the morning ...(0 years -5 years real life), you,re not sure where you are or what you,re going to do.
By about 9.00am.....(16years-21 years real life), you,ve prepared for the day ahead.
You work from 9.00am to 5.00pm.....( 21years - 60 years real life), with the odd break in the day (holidays, real life)....maybe an extended lunch hour (gap year, real life). Plenty of incidents during the day.....meeting the boss (future partners, real life), take on extra duties (growing family, real life) , meet your targets...(Mortgage, rent, bills, bills and more bills, real life).....maybe even a bit of overtime (mistress in real life..not to be advised, very draining on energy levels).
By 5.00pm, you go home for the evening......(60 years - 80+years, real life). Your time is now yours...or so you think. The evenings TV and relaxing is disrupted by adverts and phone-calls....( family crisis, illness, etc etc in real life).
By 10.00pm, you,re tired and want sleep....(anything from 70+years in real life).
By 11.55pm, you,ve dragged yourself wearily out of your chair and summoned just enough energy to climb the stairs, get undressed (prepared yourself for the inevitable in real life) and get into bed.
When your head hits that pillow.....you embrace sleep (death). If you have had a good day...(led as good a life as you can in real life), you will have no fears of impending nightmares and welcome the peace that lays ahead. Who knows what tomorrow brings.......? No one. But......it definitely has far less fear when you are so very very tired.
Take it you have stopped the other stuff too
Yes. Over 18 months now. Not even tempted. Drugs are illegal because of the physical and mental damage they do.
Nice post i like it-but normally i am 40 going on 70,however i stayed upto 0130 Friday and Satuday so i could live to 110 yet..
Yes. Over 18 months now. Not even tempted. Drugs are illegal because of the physical and mental damage they do.
I'm 20, and I've already thought about it. I'm not that bothered about dying but what I am bothered about is the people I would leave behind.
With you on this one. I don't think its death that people fear, its the unknown. On the other hand if we knew what happend when we kicked the bucket the world would be a ****ed up place.
I'm not bothered about dying, as I have no dependents, and won't be overly mourned/missed anyway. I'm more concerned about the fact that, as a Capricorn, I didn't do much when younger that my body would have let me, and now in middle age, my body won't allow what I'd like to do It's not would I, it's could I?
Can you remember the place you were in before you were born?
At death that is the place you are going back to.
No problem.