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HellBilly
Not proud of it and I guess I was in a very dark place subconsciously but it was on a night out a few years ago whilst waiting for a train at Three Bridges to Brighton. The conversation went quiet and as a dare I said I'd jump across the railway line when a train was coming. I'd been drinking for most of the day and everyone was telling me not to do it. A couple of girls were crying, begging me not to risk my life but I got down on the line, carefully not touching the line with my feet otherwise I was a goner and stopping, waving at the incoming train. The driver hooted - it wasn't stopping and it was going about 100mph but I pulled myself up onto another platform quite calmly, just in time. It wasn't until after and the nightmares when I was asleep of dreaming that I'd died how f*ck*ng stupid I'd been. Ruined the night out as I got taken home by one of the girls and she knew I had no fear of dying. I didnt either. Terrible, Terrible time. I knew then I HAD to seek proper, professional help because I would probably have played Russian roulette again.
Hope your keeping away from those dark places, we sometimes go.
Take care fella.