I am starting to struggle badly mate here on my own. It is tough for everyone I know
In which case I apologise if I was slightly harsh with my words. My suggestion would be to take a look at https://www.worldometers.info/ to get a sense of perspective. eg: 270,000 deaths from water related diseases this year, 4.2 million deaths from communicable diseases this year, 550,000 deaths from HIV/AIDS and so on. Compare this with 228,000 deaths from Covid. Serious though this all is we HAVE to keep a sense of perspective. We WILL be back to the Amex at some point, we will go to concerts again and we will see our friends again soon. Look after yourself until then.