Mine will never be higher than mid table all the time we can't go. A pop star (I forget who) once said miming on Top of the Pops was like "shagging with a Jonny on". Well, watching us on TV, combined with VAR is, compared to pre-VAR Amex games, like getting a hand job off one of the 2am "spares" from the Event. And with our finishing and the utterly shameful standard of VAR refereeing there's not even a guarantee of a happy ending.
No doubt this will disappoint the OP, who will accuse me of doom and gloom, but I'm just never going to enjoy lockdown football much. Assuming we are allowed back in the ground next season, and that the improvement shown in the second half of this season translates into a packed stadium, then my mojo will be turned up to 11 by August.
I’m uplifted by the fact that you are currently rowing your 5 boat alone